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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby KoroSensei » Thu Feb 16, 2017 11:02 am

I am so going to short out this keyboard tonight..

Sorry it made you cry :( I hope your keyboard recovers :D
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Thu Feb 16, 2017 12:16 pm

Tfw you realize The Matrix is almost 20 years old...
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Thu Feb 16, 2017 4:42 pm

I had to wikipedia The Matrix to check because I honestly couldn't believe it. I was seven when I saw The Matrix!? Goodness, makes me wonder if I saw it on VHS. I guess it doesn't feel like it was that long ago because it has aged really well.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Fri Feb 17, 2017 4:30 am

DVDs had only been out for about 4 or 5 years at that point, so you may very well have watched it on VHS, lol. I remember that it was the first movie I ever bought on dvd.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Mon Feb 20, 2017 4:11 pm

It's really hard to talk to people about books. Not only because it seems like no one reads them (or, hopefully, I've just been unlucky with the people I've run into), but because it's so hard to find someone who has read the same book as me.

I've been reading a collection of Nikolai Gogol's short stories lately and each one I've read has been fantastic and after each one I've thought to myself "I'll probably never be able to talk to anyone about this", like I've acquired some secret experience that no one will ever understand or know - it would be a lonely feeling if books didn't help me feel less lonely.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Ashley@Heart » Mon Feb 20, 2017 4:28 pm

I confess I don't read as much now as I used to. But for a long time they were where I was safe, living in another's dream for a time. Then it became movies, anime, and then online gaming and now that I am no longer running I have picked up my books again this time not to escape.

What pains me, is the festering grand cheeto if he survives his term will have a library named after him.. this person who proudly says he does not read. I think there should be solitary stone outside with the word "Unless" inscribed on it.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Mon Feb 20, 2017 6:31 pm

Naming a library in Trump's name has such potential, though. It could be America's version of all the Nazi remembrance stuff they have in Berlin. Use it as a memorial so the people will never forget the horrors of his presidency (the sad thing is that this idea is totally valid even if Trump gets impeached in a few months).

I find my reading can fluctuate pretty wildly. I read very little last year, think I only read two books, because my mental health was tanking terribly, but now that I'm getting better reading just sort of comes back to me naturally.

I never could use books to escape, or films, video games or tv-shows either. I can distract myself for periods of time with all of these media except books. Books are a special kind of stimuli and to me they are special on their own, being surrounded by books I've read and like and just holding a book that matters to me gives me a kind of comfort that I've never really understood, but I think it's because reading books was the first time I was able to feel companionship, it used to be the only thing that could stymie loneliness.

And I have to ask Carolyn, what are you reading atm?
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Wed Feb 22, 2017 1:24 am

On the arch of the future Trump library: capto per naturale eius debent
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Wed Feb 22, 2017 5:09 pm

Strange thing is that I think that translates to "They are obliged to I grab vagina", sort of, or "I grab vagina they should". It's weird, "debent" is in the third-person present indicative and "capto" is in the first-person present indicative - like there are two people in the sentence, a "they" and an "I". It was a long time ago that I studied Latin so I might be terribly wrong about all this and am just missing something.

Not entirely sure but I think the Latin word for vagina is "theca". But I don't know how direct that translation really is, or if it's just figurative - more like slang for vagina. Sort of like how "penis" (the Latin word for... penis) can also mean "tail". "Penis" does at least actually refer to penis, though, that's a solid translation. "Vagina" is Latin for scabbard and "theca" mainly means box so come to think of it I'm not sure there is an actual, direct word in Latin for vagina. "Naturale eius" confuses me so much, I have no idea why that means vagina according to a google search that pointed me to some dodgy looking sites. I mean, "naturale" is in the neuter and "eius" is a demonstrative pronoun in the genitive singular so "Naturale eius" would roughly and literally mean "Its characteristic/nature"? I must've gotten that one wrong.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Wed Feb 22, 2017 11:45 pm

You'll have to give me a pass on that one. I haven't studied latin at all, and just google translated back and forth until I got a reliable result. According to that, it translates as "grab the vagina".
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Thu Feb 23, 2017 11:56 am

Yeah, sorry, got triggered and geeked out, I suppose.

Which I then did again today and as far as I can figure, the best translation of "grab the vagina" would be "Captā thecam".

The more you know! (I feel my pedantry has pushed this into an unhealthy place)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Fri Feb 24, 2017 12:22 am

Haha, no worries, unless it's something that legitimately is bothering you, I'm always up for learning. :)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Sat Feb 25, 2017 1:23 pm

This is why I don't like friends sending me their writing. If it's bad, I'm not good at telling them it's bad. And it often is. Confrontation in real life, even of the polite constructive variety, is not my forte.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby PentacleGoddess » Mon Feb 27, 2017 1:05 am

Oh thank god Moonlight beat out La La Land.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Lucy-chan » Mon Feb 27, 2017 11:48 am

PentacleGoddess wrote:Oh thank god Moonlight beat out La La Land.


Sometimes people say to me, 'your living in la la land.'

These days i think 'i hope not. I dont want to be board for two hours....'
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby diane » Mon Feb 27, 2017 3:31 pm

The dammed IRS fucked up my name in their system, and accused me of fraud, even though the social security office told me "the name the IRS says your name is has never been in our system for your name".

The IRS is blaming the social security office, the social security office said the IRS is screwed up because they've never had it like they have it.

What did they do? They screwed up my first and last names, and thought "well your name changed because you married "my old name" so you're "Diane Rodgers" now right?"

Now.... after filing early because I needed money (I filed over a month ago, it's been almost 1.5 months actually), I have to wait until it's been 2 months before I can show up in person to show "hey fucking dumbshits, see this name? see it? DO YOU FUCKING SEE IT!!!!" just so they realize that "do you see that the SS, driver's license, W2, all forms, and taxes were filled out in the same name? yeah, that's my name"..... so that I can maybe get my refund of 1361 sometime in May-July.... yes.... they said it will be at least 8 weeks after I verify my identity at the end of march for me to get it, possibly up to 16 weeks.....
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Demon » Tue Feb 28, 2017 3:25 pm

diane wrote:The dammed IRS fucked up my name in their system, and accused me of fraud, even though the social security office told me "the name the IRS says your name is has never been in our system for your name".

The IRS is blaming the social security office, the social security office said the IRS is screwed up because they've never had it like they have it.

What did they do? They screwed up my first and last names, and thought "well your name changed because you married "my old name" so you're "Diane Rodgers" now right?"

Now.... after filing early because I needed money (I filed over a month ago, it's been almost 1.5 months actually), I have to wait until it's been 2 months before I can show up in person to show "hey fucking dumbshits, see this name? see it? DO YOU FUCKING SEE IT!!!!" just so they realize that "do you see that the SS, driver's license, W2, all forms, and taxes were filled out in the same name? yeah, that's my name"..... so that I can maybe get my refund of 1361 sometime in May-July.... yes.... they said it will be at least 8 weeks after I verify my identity at the end of march for me to get it, possibly up to 16 weeks.....


If its one thing you learn about society and humans...it's that they're really stupid...like really fucking stupid... and always dissapoint you in terms of paperwork communications...
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby lizaaq » Thu Mar 02, 2017 2:00 am

date reserved with suporn.. it's like 20 months away, but still, it's nice to have a date :)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby kris » Thu Mar 02, 2017 11:12 am

I was wondering how far off you would book it. Awesome that you have a date though. Makes it so much easier to plan your life when you know when this will happen.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Thu Mar 02, 2017 1:30 pm

Super neato! Congratulations lizaaq!

Wish I had a date for my orchi, sucks not knowing when an important surgery will be.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby lizaaq » Fri Mar 03, 2017 3:18 am

@Rheya thank you, and i hope you get a date soon :)

@Kris that's the earliest they had available, unfortunately :(
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby kris » Fri Mar 03, 2017 10:23 am

Wow, really? I thought you just chose something a bit later for your own reasons. I wonder if demand has exploded lately.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby KoroSensei » Fri Mar 03, 2017 12:14 pm

Got a new haircut! Feelin' super masculine :3
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Fri Mar 03, 2017 2:16 pm

Aw man, nice KoroSensei!

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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby lizaaq » Fri Mar 03, 2017 5:22 pm

kris wrote:Wow, really? I thought you just chose something a bit later for your own reasons. I wonder if demand has exploded lately.


it's not that bad if you got to Chet but Suporn is the most famous, so it sorta makes sense
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby diane » Sat Mar 04, 2017 8:00 pm

so apparently the irs is giving me my money on the 7th..... but i have to confirm my identity on the 20th in person.....
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby ChristineMckeehan » Sat Mar 04, 2017 8:07 pm

Hey guys how's everything
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Sat Mar 04, 2017 8:59 pm

It's okay, more or less.

I developed an eczema on my boob scars which is weird. The surgeon said he'd never seen anything like it. Started a basic low-dose hydrocortisone treatment less than a week ago and it's already almost gone, so no worries there. Nice to see the scars for the first time after eleven months, lookin' pretty good.

How are things with you, dear?
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby ChristineMckeehan » Sun Mar 05, 2017 1:30 am

Rheya wrote:It's okay, more or less.

I developed an eczema on my boob scars which is weird. The surgeon said he'd never seen anything like it. Started a basic low-dose hydrocortisone treatment less than a week ago and it's already almost gone, so no worries there. Nice to see the scars for the first time after eleven months, lookin' pretty good.

How are things with you, dear?

Not well lol my plans sadly didn't work out I'm still with my family that would rather me kill myself than be female lol So I'm secretly gonna start self medicating nothing crazy honestly I can't take this anymore and need some kind of pick me up it's stupid regardless but it will calm me down while I can figure some stuff out and if they catch me well I'll try one more time to convince them otherwise I don't care anymore lol
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Mon Mar 06, 2017 12:49 pm

I'm sorry to hear that, was hoping it had picked up some.

You gotta do what you gotta do to survive, but considering what your family is like I'd keep everything from them at all cost. Don't get reckless and try to be aware of any self-destructive behavior or instincts. Keep your wits about you and stay safe.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Ashley@Heart » Mon Mar 06, 2017 2:03 pm

ChristineMckeehan wrote:Not well lol my plans sadly didn't work out I'm still with my family that would rather me kill myself than be female lol So I'm secretly gonna start self medicating nothing crazy honestly I can't take this anymore and need some kind of pick me up it's stupid regardless but it will calm me down while I can figure some stuff out and if they catch me well I'll try one more time to convince them otherwise I don't care anymore lol


Please be careful. I am no expert in these matters by a long shot. But if you are going to do it no matter what. I would recommend starting on a lower dose without a AA like spiro. If you are going to use oral E pills plan your dosages for twice daily and include a little aspirin. And then later slowly add the spiro and full E dosages. I am sure you can get far better suggestions and more specific suggested timelines from others here.

And please find something to care about, some thing to look forward to beyond just being female or hormones. I know your situation is less than terrific but this is not a do or die thing. Please do what you can to lay the foundation for future financial and personal independence outside of their control as I feel this is far more important in the long run. I don't mean avoid HRT but perhaps start slow while I you build your plans so that hormones do not out you faster than you are ready for. (But yes even the low dosage 2 1mg E pills daily I am on has been a bit of a mood lifter for me so I cannot deny the potentially effects.)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Tue Mar 14, 2017 6:15 pm

My self-esteem is in the toilet today. Was unbearable being outside seeing all the women I will never be close to looking like. Everyone I saw made me feel like a hideous monster.

I'm starting to wonder when and if days like this will go away.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby diane » Tue Mar 14, 2017 11:15 pm

Currently hosting a scentsy party until like March 29th at "my house".... the person who's going to be over me if I become a consultant is trying to get me to have my joining be "basically paid by it" so it won't cost me anything.


Now I just have to get people to buy the stuff lol.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Danette Celeste » Wed Mar 15, 2017 9:34 am

diane wrote:Currently hosting a scentsy party until like March 29th at "my house".... the person who's going to be over me if I become a consultant is trying to get me to have my joining be "basically paid by it" so it won't cost me anything.


Now I just have to get people to buy the stuff lol.


I have a warmer in my office and my wife has them throughout the house.

Scentsy's world HQ is about 3 miles from my home. They've built quite an empire.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Wed Mar 15, 2017 11:31 am

diane wrote:Currently hosting a scentsy party until like March 29th at "my house".... the person who's going to be over me if I become a consultant is trying to get me to have my joining be "basically paid by it" so it won't cost me anything.


Now I just have to get people to buy the stuff lol.


Um, isn't that one of those pyramid scheme companies?
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Demon » Wed Mar 15, 2017 11:59 am

Rheya wrote:My self-esteem is in the toilet today. Was unbearable being outside seeing all the women I will never be close to looking like. Everyone I saw made me feel like a hideous monster.

I'm starting to wonder when and if days like this will go away.


For me, what happened is, I was pushed by the gaurds until I found myself slowly walking on the narrow road to descent into hell, hades and damnation, everytime I turned around to escape the road the gaurds pushed me further to keep me walking forward on the road to perdition, until I found myself becoming the monster that I was, unable to get a breath of air and save myself from the anchors which drowned me laughing at my demise, consumed by flames and an unescapable drowning into pain, torment, and death.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby lizaaq » Wed Mar 15, 2017 11:41 pm

Demon wrote:
Rheya wrote:My self-esteem is in the toilet today. Was unbearable being outside seeing all the women I will never be close to looking like. Everyone I saw made me feel like a hideous monster.

I'm starting to wonder when and if days like this will go away.


For me, what happened is, I was pushed by the gaurds until I found myself slowly walking on the narrow road to descent into hell, hades and damnation, everytime I turned around to escape the road the gaurds pushed me further to keep me walking forward on the road to perdition, until I found myself becoming the monster that I was, unable to get a breath of air and save myself from the anchors which drowned me laughing at my demise, consumed by flames and an unescapable drowning into pain, torment, and death.


no doubt not being cis sucks, but I try to keep in mind that I'm alive. I came out after having a mole removed that had a high chance of being cancerous. I didn't have cancer, thankfully, but I mean I might have. so a life, even a trans life, is a life to be thankful for and to enjoy the best we can :)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Danette Celeste » Thu Mar 16, 2017 9:41 am

Rheya wrote:
diane wrote:Currently hosting a scentsy party until like March 29th at "my house".... the person who's going to be over me if I become a consultant is trying to get me to have my joining be "basically paid by it" so it won't cost me anything.


Now I just have to get people to buy the stuff lol.


Um, isn't that one of those pyramid scheme companies?


It's a multi-level marketing structure similar to Mary Kay, Tupperware, etc. While MLMs have their own shortcomings, they aren't pyramids where one operator uses newer investor's money to pay dividends to to older investors and eventually can't create enough cash flow to sustain the scheme.

(Transparency - I am a not very active Mary Kay Independent Beauty Consultant. I primarily do it for myself, my wife and my daughter.)
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Thu Mar 16, 2017 10:00 am

No, that's almost literally a pyramid scheme. It's common knowledge that "multi-level marketing" is a new-fangled term for and version of a pyramid scheme. At least it has always been where I live, they seem more popular in the Americas than they do here in Europe though.

John Oliver explained the hustle of it pretty well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6MwGeOm8iI

And good heavens is it a hustle.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby lizaaq » Thu Mar 16, 2017 3:56 pm

Danette what you described is a ponzi scheme, a pyramid scheme is also bad, just in a different way
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Demon » Sat Mar 18, 2017 1:24 pm

lizaaq wrote:
Demon wrote:
Rheya wrote:My self-esteem is in the toilet today. Was unbearable being outside seeing all the women I will never be close to looking like. Everyone I saw made me feel like a hideous monster.

I'm starting to wonder when and if days like this will go away.


For me, what happened is, I was pushed by the gaurds until I found myself slowly walking on the narrow road to descent into hell, hades and damnation, everytime I turned around to escape the road the gaurds pushed me further to keep me walking forward on the road to perdition, until I found myself becoming the monster that I was, unable to get a breath of air and save myself from the anchors which drowned me laughing at my demise, consumed by flames and an unescapable drowning into pain, torment, and death.


no doubt not being cis sucks, but I try to keep in mind that I'm alive. I came out after having a mole removed that had a high chance of being cancerous. I didn't have cancer, thankfully, but I mean I might have. so a life, even a trans life, is a life to be thankful for and to enjoy the best we can :)


I believe cis is a myth that doesn't exist. We are all human and modern gender is a social construct, in actual true human nature, girls want boys toys and boys want to dress in pretty and comfortable clothes.

The battle we must fight is not only a battle against bigots, but also bigots in the trans community, and also a fight against modern living, which is the post-truth era and age of hypocrisy, where even our closest friends will betray us and abandon us without warning or explanation, this is the age where honor and common decency no longer exist, the age of lies, the apocalypse, and no love. This is the degenerate age of dysgenics, apathy, mental slavery, groupthink, tyranny, and rudeness.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby KoroSensei » Sat Mar 18, 2017 7:14 pm

Went to a causal Magic: The Gathering game night. Had fun, and actually won a few matches! Yay! :mrgreen:
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Michi » Sun Mar 19, 2017 2:03 pm

I'm thinking about becoming an Uber or Lyft driver part time. Anyone have any experience with that? I guess that means I'd have to go back online. I may have to put a dog hair disclaimer.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Ashley@Heart » Sun Mar 19, 2017 10:17 pm

Yay 1000 posts... I thought about doing something meaningful but screw that.. I don't owe 1000 anything. :lol:
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Postby ChristineMckeehan » Sun Mar 19, 2017 10:36 pm

wow thats a milestone congrats!
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Michi » Thu Mar 23, 2017 9:12 am

Job interview tonight for a second job as dishwasher. Think I may wear baseball hat instead of wig but not sure.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby diane » Thu Mar 23, 2017 11:40 pm

Rheya wrote:No, that's almost literally a pyramid scheme. It's common knowledge that "multi-level marketing" is a new-fangled term for and version of a pyramid scheme. At least it has always been where I live, they seem more popular in the Americas than they do here in Europe though.

John Oliver explained the hustle of it pretty well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6MwGeOm8iI

And good heavens is it a hustle.


Depends on what you do with it... many don't even care to have others do things (really, a lot just manipulate it to "host a party for themselves" and then just buy the stuff for their own use--considering some scents last up to 6 months... fairly decent for like $6 lol, especially if you do a party for yourself and get it for up to half that).

I of all the people I've met that sell it, they don't even care to have people under them. They just mention that if someone buys a lot from them (some people spend hundreds a month... every month), it'd be cheaper for them if they became a consultant and just did parties for themselves to get it cheaper lol.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby KoroSensei » Sat Mar 25, 2017 8:18 pm

I wish my friends would check their emails once in a while.
Not that there's anything IMPORTANT I need to tell them or anything...
It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby Rheya » Sat Mar 25, 2017 9:36 pm

Saw the new Dave Chappelle special on Netflix. It was okay I guess, but the stuff on LGBTQ-people couldn't help but bother me. It wasn't terrible or horrid, but it was harmful. He upheld a lot of negative stereotypes and I couldn't help but think about the old dogwhistle effect when hearing him make jokes about it. He did make up for it a bit by showing some general support but the complete lack of understanding that followed made that support a little suspect - like it was put upfront to curry favor so he could then make jokes based in prejudice.

I know I can be oversensitive when it comes to this stuff, but for once I'd like to hear a joke about transgendered people that actually comes out of an understanding of us and not out of the prejudices of obstinate cispeople. Just hearing Chappelles jokes made me go "What the hell is he talking about? That has nothing to do with transgendered people." And of course all the jokes are about transwomen, because transmen still seem to barely exist in the social consciousness. It's no accident that transwomen get so much of the negative attention, if people were to stop and think about why that is they'd soon find out some really horrible things about the gender norms of western society.

Come to think of it, I think the only comedian I've heard speak reasonably about transgendered people is Lewis Black. He didn't make any jokes about us, though, he just sort of showed respect for the struggle; solidarity is a rare thing nowadays.

KoroSensei wrote:I wish my friends would check their emails once in a while.
Not that there's anything IMPORTANT I need to tell them or anything...


If the internet can't help you reach your friends then there is always the old fashioned method of tying a message to a rock and leaving it in their mailbox. The rock is purely symbolic, it shows them the weight and thus the importance of the message which will prepare them for taking it seriously.
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Re: What are you thinking about right now?

Postby KoroSensei » Sun Mar 26, 2017 8:40 am

there is always the old fashioned method of tying a message to a rock and leaving it in their mailbox.

I'm not quite at that point yet. :) It's just hard to get a hold of them for various reasons. I'd much prefer to talk to them in person anyway, so maybe it's for the best.
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