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Re: I need support

Postby CeliaEriksson » Wed Sep 20, 2017 3:19 am

Hi Nicky,

Glad to hear things are moving on nicely for you. Keep us posted and write here more!.... :) Take care, Celia xx
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Re: I need support

Postby CuteButLooksPregnant » Thu Sep 21, 2017 10:51 am

MyNicky wrote:. . . . however I had a huge personal victory; I had a job interview and I went wearing lip gloss, breast forms and my shoulder length hair out in all its glory and long story short, I got the job!
. . . . but it's an exciting sign of the progress so far!


If it is a roller coaster ride, Nicky, then at least you are screaming for the thrill and joy of it, instead of screaming out of fear, trepidation, and uncertainty !

On a more somber note, the more you progress, and the more you accomplish the tenets of your transition, the mental, emotional, and social price climbs higher and higher. Where you once may have declared that you will never, NEVER, to this or that, later you will bite your tongue and go ahead and do that very thing, if it means addressing another milestone in your transition. I know, I had to do the very same. I paid my price, as astronomical as it became, and have now reached most of my gender goals, but now am fighting to have no regrets over the unsuspecting and grossly inflated price of having peace of mind, heart, and soul.
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Re: I need support

Postby MyNicky » Wed Oct 11, 2017 2:59 pm

Well it seems the backside has fallen off the world. I've been booted out if my own home (yet again) and I've been living out of my car with nowhere to go. It's an unnerving feeling not feeling safe in your own home, but having video evidence of being verbally and physically assaulted is a scary reminder. Every time I've sought help in the past the overwhelming response is "suck it up".
I need to get out of here. Oh, if only I could dive into cyberspace and live.
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Re: I need support

Postby CeliaEriksson » Wed Oct 11, 2017 4:10 pm

Oh Nicky, I am so sorry about that! I hope someone can help you. Living out of a car is a very bad thing, I wish you find a place very soon, that really is terrible. How can people just say suck it up? Have you tried YMCA or gone to the council about it? We have a thing called 'shelter' in England that help someone in your situation, do you have that? Where do you live maybe someone here can help? Celia xx
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Re: I need support

Postby MyNicky » Thu Oct 12, 2017 1:48 am

I'm well and truly on the other side of the world! I hail from Down Under! We have 'Community Housing' here, and it was they, whose exact words were 'you might just have to do it tough for a few days, these things have a way of sorting themselves out.'
This was just over a year ago, the last time things got bad.
A brutally honest moment, the only reason I went back that time was because I had nowhere else to go. I was away from home for 6 weeks in a less than ideal situation. This entire year has been about building bridges and trying to find peace.
I honestly don't know where to go from here. I've only just started a new job, so I have only one payslip to try and live off.
"Home" doesn't feel like a safe place to be. I had to sneak in before dawn just for a clean set of clothes. I can't face being screamed at again. I just don't know what to do.
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Re: I need support

Postby MorganWoolf » Thu Oct 12, 2017 2:10 pm

I presume this means you have no friends who are willing to let you crash with them huh?
Do the folks at work know you're transgender?

Are you building any friendships or relationships with anyone at work?
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Re: I need support

Postby MyNicky » Thu Oct 12, 2017 9:33 pm

I've only been on this job for one month, so it seems kinda creepy to ask so soon. Made one friend at least, but Murphy's Law at play, its their last day on the job today, so that sucks. I'm not out in the open about being transgender, at least not yet. My hair is still growing out beautifully and I haven't used men's deodorant in at least a year, and I still wear a very light pink lip gloss every day, so I like to think I'm still just taking baby steps. I feel like I need to find stability in my personal life before coming out.
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